As I'm looking out the window and considering what to do...
I realise an hour's gone by and I'm really missing you.
The memories come flooding in, the loss feels hard to bare
I try to give myself a break, but I never quite get there.
How can time go by so fast while it's also standing still?
I drag my body through the day, mostly against it's will.
My concentration is lacking, my focus non-existent.
My intention and my apathy, are often inconsistent.
I toss and turn for hours at night yet sleep, it rarely comes
Then when it does, I awake to that familiar sucker punch
I don't know how to function even when things are important.
My motivation and lust for life appear to be lying dormant.
It sometimes feels you've gone away for a day trip or a meeting
And then, my chest feels heavy and I find myself left reeling.
How do I get through this? My life is changed for ever.
But know that you'll be in my heart always and forever.